I have business card with my name on them saying I am a screenwrite yet I haven’t finished writing a single script or story.
Do short stories count?
Like everything in my life i fail to truly finish things, sure I clock in and clock out for work but any space monkey can do that. I finish video games, meals and drinks oh my friend its a great sin to niot finish a drink in my book!
Okay can we talk? how do you tell you best friend you want them to stay single, your happy they found someone but deep down inside you….your jealous. Slowly that turns to hate, and you just want them to be single again so you don’t feel so damn alone when you realize all your friends have someone. I feel like an asshole for thinking this….I want my friends to be happy and find someone that helps them get there.
So why is it so hard for me? I am nice to these girls I meet, I try to balance and not be too nice, too needy, creepy, horny,sad….but sometimes when I kiss them. Im just thinking to myself how do I get them naked and sucking on my…..you know what.
I swear i was never this…messed up I swear there was a time I just wanted one person to complete me. I still kinda do but that feeling is fading lately….like a sunset.
maybe theres hope for me…maybe not. I really dont know anymore….alll the money in the world is nice…but it wouldnt fill this hole inside of me.
Also being alone…..take its toll on a man, eventually he gets used to it and forgets that theres a world around him.
